Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Saturday Night cum Sunday Morning

Quadro Club, Avenue K, Autumn...

Not very satisfying, 1st impression gone case. The club is so pack, and the club only lets people keep coming in, imagine a place where you can only move a quater step to the place in front, behind, left or right of you. Sometimes people just feel like moving on in life, just want to invite people around him to be with him and to enjoy or to experience what is it like.

Friends do come and go but who are the ones that will walk with you and to understand what does the friend want for his life. I thought that I have not been understanding towards all of your needs and wants, yeah, it was all my fault that I do not spend much time with you guys. Fuck it, when was the last time you all really thought of what have I been doing is for all of you?

Do you think I would even waste my time for you guys if you weren't even important to me? Just a stupid clubbing night out, a few stupid wrong timings, and a few unattended birthday parties you guys have left me in the state of emergency where ouh:"richard has his own life already, he doesn't even care about us anymore, he has this girl, he has his new friends..."

FUCK YOU GUYS, GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU SELFISH IDIOTS!

Didn't I invite you guys to join me for my outings? Did I ignore you when you needed help? What have I done over these few years that you guys have forgotten about it? I am just living life like I want it to be, excellent, exciting, adventourous, and most of all Happening. Didn't I tell you guys that it is only 3 months that I am undergoing this training?

4 fuckers just screws up my day. If you think that I am not thinking of the 4 of you all the time, think again. I'm just so tired going after the 4 of you, it fucking drains my energy and it kills my confidence level when I can't even talk to the 4 of you. My confidence level drops the most when it is the 4 of you having to say:" richard has left us and been with others."

Just what I needed the most is the things that the 4 of you have taken away from me. Just when the times that I know I can do much more than what I have been doing, one stupid comment has taken it again away from me. What I needed the most is actually the 4 of you standing beside me all the time.

Instead of dragging me away, I would rather have the 4 of you supporting what I am doing instead of just telling me that I do not care about the 4 of you. I do not care about what the 5 of us has been doing in the past. When I have found myself, I am lost again. Fuck.

Thank you.

4 comments:

Jade said...

hey..what's up with you? dont be so fucked up! chilll.. im not one of that 4, right.......?

cos i was just kidding that day when i said that u forgot about us already over the phone....

Jan said...

hey...chill~~

Richard Low said...

need to count properly la jade, this blog post is not specially dedicated for you guys one. pai seh.. haha

Jade said...

ish..how i know u..
i sms u so blooody long, u reply me only 3-4 words.call u, u din answer...how i know what's happening to u?! later i said sth, then u said i make my own assumptions pula...

sigh sigh....